The trial examination has ended, finally. It was really a challenging time for me. I did my best and I has finally managed to be the at least, top 30 student in school. I am so proud of myself, though my mom said it was not a good result. I only got 4A out of 10. It is not the big exam yet, but I think that I've done my very best and I already had broke my own leg for the exam. Truth to be told, I cannot bear to hear that mom was not satisfied with my result. Gotta work and strive harder for the future. Wish me luck.
So many things happened this lately. I rarely go home these few weeks because of the exam. So I decided to stay at school and spend time with fellow friends. I somehow feel so sad to think that I will leave the chaos in school, very soon. Only less than two months left and I have to leave the school for good. The chaos in school, especially in class and the dorm itself, really made myself a better person. These people really meant something to me. My classmates were not the person I thought they were. I saw the manly-kind-of-person presented by the boys, and the girls that I spent my every night with, were not as I expected. These people brought the good and bad inside me and somehow changed myself for a better person. They really bring the shines in my life and I am sure going to miss them so bad.
I've been so emotional these few days. Everything seemed negative to me. I was so tired of the same thing that happened again and again. I lost the interests in things I used to enjoy. I thought of letting everything goes as the God says. I never thought that choosing between two was so hard that I did not know which one to choose. I will be damned if I choose and damned if I don't. So i decided not to choose both. I've been asking for many people's opinion and they said that I have to choose between two. I don't know what I should I do. What should I actually do?
