Where, What & Why

It is harder than I have ever expected. To decide where to study, what course to take, & why must I take it. I have been thinking about this for a month. This happens when you listened too much from different people. I am still confuse whether to stay in the engineering family or step out from my course back in SPM and take a new experience in a new surrounding. Still thinking though. If I pursue in engineering, I got the advantage because I have the basics theory in the studies. Meaning that when other students are learning new stuffs, I just have to revise the basics I learnt back in school. Quite interesting huh? *smirk* Or maybe I should take business (in additional of banking and finance too) and gain new knowledges and new things to learn? /literally fainted/

"Apply je semua. Nanti bila dapat baru fikir" - mostly the seniorita would say,

And then I did, what they have told to me. I did applied for....I don't even know the numbers of the universities??? Mostly high recommended are like, MMU, IUKL, Taylor's and bla bla bla. Few days later, I got feedback(s) from the universities and they offered me the programme that I am interested in. There you go. Different colleges, same course, different modules, same duration of study. Dizzy mizzy Ika. Oh I need to take panadol now!

"It's not about the money, money" - Jessie J

Oh I caught that you were wrong, Jessie. YES! It is all about the money??? If I am going to take private college to pursue my studies, who's going to pay for it? Yes, of course my father. As the eldest in the number of two, I don't want to burden my father to pay all the fees. Loan? Sooner or later, I have to pay for it. I don't know what other students feel, but for me, how can you study at same time you are having debt$ for your studies?

Few days till June and most of the fellas are going for uitm to pursue theirs'. Good luck to all of you! I wish nothing but the best for you guys. Go chase your dreams and don't forget about me! I am off now, going to read "My Resolutions" by Chicken Soup & Soul. Adios!

Work, or twerk?

So I was out from the National Service Programme and was thinking of finding a job. So I did find a job and I survived for a month.

Damn, I never thought working would be this pressure. I work as a part-time worker but since I wasn't doing anything at home, so the manager gave about 8-12 hours a day job for me. So all I did was standing, and serving customer for RM6/hour. It wasn't that bad, though. But the manager, he was so strict in everything that even though a part-time worker, have to work as a full-time, one. After couple of weeks of working, I was thinking that I have to quit before my migraine get worst than now. So I did, quit my job after a month of working. I am free now, yaaaaay!

Love, or hate?

So as usual, I can't accept things easily in life even though I know there is something hidden behind all that happened. People think that I am playing the hearts of others while they have no idea what am I thinking about. There are so many kind of things running on my mind and I could not think or decide to love or to hate. I have so many things to do and at the same time, I've to take care of the gentlemen's feelings. It is not easy to reject people in life. They three came at the same time and I rejected three of them. Bestfriends? Oops I don't play the friendzone game. It's too much too say "Can't we just stay as friends?" Wow, it was so hard for me to say that to them. So I left, silently and let them live their own life(s).