Where to begin...
Ah! I just discovered my hobby, well my actual hobby, instead of watching movies and sleeping. I discovered that i love to write! Yes, write! Why? Em maybe it is because I have no one to talk to and then i got so much things and words running in my head so i decided to write. It somehow relieves me that i can express my feeling into writing even in Microsoft word. Oh wait...that is typing? Nah i considered it the same. Since my handwriting is not that good...well it is not even good though haha so yah I decided to make microsoft and blogger as my diary. But well, that is not my point why I am writing now. So lets proceed..
I never thought that it could end up like this. You know, when you have a special kind of friendship among your friends and we all ended up as strangers few years later. I am experiencing one of the phases right now. Sigh, where to begin again.. I have never, like ever experienced a strong bond of friendship between me and friends like I had with them. Whoops, is it too early for me to say “had”? Ok since I am still having my faith, yep, friendship that I am having right now. Too bad, I am the one now who always nag about this and that but they don’t seem like bothering anymore. It hurts, really. A person had told me a phrase, “when you feel like separating, think again about the good sides of it.” Well, it sounds cheesy but I can clearly see the point there. Yes, I am hurting right now because they have been ignoring me for a long time. But then i remembered that we all are grown ups now and we got our own lives instead of living in a bunch of us. Now that is the thing that I am afraid the most. Seeing them, busy with their own lives, that is the thing that has come to the top of my fears. I just...I couldn’t bear with it.