Lost Star


I am a lost star.
A star that is lost in the galaxy.
Wandering everywhere in the galaxy without knowing the reason why.
Trying to light up the dark by my own.
Not realizing that I was too small to light up the whole galaxy.
Standing by my own without having any other stars around.
People think I am beautiful because of the shines that appeared.
It is good to make people happy because of you.
Well at least I tried my best to make others happy.
Even by standing on my own.


blind


I guess that we were too blind to see what is the good side of other people when you just focus on that specific someone, even if he's doing the bad thing. You get what i mean? Lately I've been staring alone thinking about something I'm not even sure. My life is at the very high level of miserable. I on't even know what I'm doing right now. I have final exam in less than two days and I am now, writing a post on my blog about something I don't even know what it is.


Every question has an answer if you figure it out.
You know a person means something to you if his/her name has emoji in your contact.
You know he means something to you when you always look for him before he does.
You know he means the world when you find him every second of your life.
You know he means something when he is wrong but you still looks him as if he's doing it right.
You know he means the world when you're the one who says the word sorry first.

I put his heart first before mine and always, ended up feeling so hurt inside. Why am I acting this way? Is it because I love him so much? I trust word so easily and he takes it for granted. Chances after chances, he is still the same as before. Is it my fault for being so faithful or is it his fault for being a jerk? The truth remains unknown.


Thoughts


I'm wide awake now after trying to sleep for almost an hour. Tried to sleep, but i couldn't. So i think that I've been keeping so much things on my mind and I need to let it all out. Of course, here is the best place to do so. I read something just now, about someone and the thing that I read, is the thing that has been running on my mind right now. It bothers me so much that I couldn't put myself to bed.

*playing let it go - james bay x ed sheeran*

Why did such things happen to me? Why? I've been asking the same question all over again to myself. What did i do wrong? Is there any way that i can do to have him back? No? Okay then. (i should actually do a lab report now but nah) I am so sad to think that I was not good enough to him that he left me for someone else. Am I that bad? Another thing, it is so sad to think that you can do nothing other than stalking him and watching him from far far away. Deeeeeeeep down in my heart, I still have him in it. Came to a point where I think I could never get rid of him. He was the person whom I put so much efforts and time into. It all had burnt like a paper was burnt by flame. Gone, but never forgotten. Sad me is sad.