Thoughts

I'm wide awake now after trying to sleep for almost an hour. Tried to sleep, but i couldn't. So i think that I've been keeping so much things on my mind and I need to let it all out. Of course, here is the best place to do so. I read something just now, about someone and the thing that I read, is the thing that has been running on my mind right now. It bothers me so much that I couldn't put myself to bed.

*playing let it go - james bay x ed sheeran*

Why did such things happen to me? Why? I've been asking the same question all over again to myself. What did i do wrong? Is there any way that i can do to have him back? No? Okay then. (i should actually do a lab report now but nah) I am so sad to think that I was not good enough to him that he left me for someone else. Am I that bad? Another thing, it is so sad to think that you can do nothing other than stalking him and watching him from far far away. Deeeeeeeep down in my heart, I still have him in it. Came to a point where I think I could never get rid of him. He was the person whom I put so much efforts and time into. It all had burnt like a paper was burnt by flame. Gone, but never forgotten. Sad me is sad.