Never thought of how that single line could give a really big impact on me. Ouch, it hurts, really :( And yes, there's a story behind that single line.
So i had to let go of everything you know, like every single thing. (holding on my tears) I don't know macam nak menyesal ke tak actually. But yea, nak menyesal pun macam dah tak ada guna. (i am playing it girl by jason derulo) (holding on tears again) ahhhhhhhhhhhh it really is, hard to let go of everything. You know, when a person gave you so much memories and then yes of course, you guys did spend most of the time together. Bertenang ok dear self, gwenchana gwenchana (wiping off my tears)
Heart breaks after another. It'll heal, soon. Can someone tell me how do i delete all the memories in my phone? *cries* 80% of my photos were the pictures of us ahahahaha yes. But then, i had to delete all the pictures because i'm a person who always goes through the photo gallery for nothing, really. So i deleted 700+ photos of us. It was hard *cries again* but then, i didn't delete our conversation on whats app and imessage haha! Like, sama je kan? My friends semua macam marah tau sebab they can guess that i will look through the conv again and again. Eh biar la! hahaha. It takes time, really.
He's happy now with someone else and i hope nothing but the best for both of them. (aww so sweet of me) At first, mula macam nak dendam tau macam eh kau tak sayang aku dah ke macam eh perempuan tu apa lebihnya dari aku macam eh aku sepuluh juta kali ganda lagi lawa kot and whats not. Anyhow anyway, macam tak ada guna je nak keep all of those thoughts in mind. Dunia ni kan ibarat roda, sooner or later, the same thing will happen to us jugak kan. So yea, then i let go la all of the thoughts. I macam, takpe la doakan je la terbaik for both of them. I, myself also have the pros and cons. Maybe she has something that i don't have. Maybe she's nicer than me maybe this maybe that. So, I, as a matured girl, (not a woman yet ok) i let go of everything. Who knows, if Allah swt nak tunjuk something yang kita tak nampak ke kan. I macam, dia dah bahagia pun so macam nak dengki pun, dia dah ada someone. I? I tunggu je la anyone nak masuk line haha sounds so pathetic! I am not that pathetic ok. So yeah, that was a bit of my thought. I don't know to tell who so i decided to let out everything in the blog. Esok ada test calculus, adios!