I just had my calculus test this evening. It was bad, really. Can't think of anything right now :( I was about to give up to this course, but then yea a successful person of course, has its ups and downs along the way. Positively thinking, i still can improve in the future and i hope so.
So yea, the picture says it all. What i'm going to write today is about a story of a guy who once made my life happy. But i couldn't go any further with him. You guys might say that i'm a pathetic girl, talking about love and guys all the way in the blog but yea, this is my blog and you can't do anything about that xD You know, when you feel like there is no one there, (well there is, actually) and then you just have your own blog where you can write all of your thoughts together, well it somehow relieves me. I can let it all out here, at least.
Here's how the story goes like; this guy, i had a relationship with him for like, one and a half year? Can't really remember. It was like 3 years ago. I don't like calling him as my ex boyfriend you know like, he's not my ex, he's just not the right guy, he's just not my fate, and whats not. So yea this guy was like the most special amongst the rest. I spent a lot of time putting a lot of patience in myself for the sake of this guy and yea we broke up in like, the nicest way for a couple to break up lol. We are still contacting each other now, but not too often. But, we contact as if we are friends, really, normal friends. Flashbacks? Yep, we do that sometimes. Not making it too obvious, because i am afraid if there might be silent readers among my friends, i'd be dead for sure lol.
He said that he would wait for me cause he knows that I worth his waits. But that was 3 years ago, a long time ago. I am not very sure of what is his feeling right now, but i hope the words are still in his mind. Not hoping too much, but i'm pretty sure that he's a one hell loyal guy. Ever since we broke up, he never had any other girl after me.(well it was base on what i saw on ig, twitter and etc.) That made me think of the words he once spoke to me and it sounds like what most of the guy would say, he loves me the most and etc. We tried a few times to like, get along together, again but he was too afraid that the mistakes he once did, would repeat again and again. In other words, he didn't want me to get sick of him and hate him even more than before. As a girl, who doesn't want to be back in a relationship with the guy that you put most efforts and time into? Yes, I would of course, want him back in my arms, even if it is for the second time. Slowly, we are now putting back the broken hearts together and hoping for a better future. Not hoping too much from him, but if he's my fate, never in a million years would it be for someone else, right? Have faith, dear self.
I am too sleepy to proceed more about this guy because i got class at 8am tomorrow and it is 1am now!! Gotta hit the sack now, Assalamualaikum :)